one of the things i hate most, is not really knowing how much impact i put onto people, or in other words how much i can hurt him. i'm not going to get touchy, and make you say "aww' because this isn't really the point. usually i dont know where to go, dont really know what to do, and when i usually find a good friend, there's one of my best friends to rely on him or her too in their times of need as well. and suddenly there's somewhat of a lame competition going on.
i hate that really.
but so on and so forth, one of my best friends has sorda left me off. i'm fine and i totally understand the fact that she has a boyfriend. maybe i'd be the same way, maybe i wouldn't. but i know for a fact that i wouldn't suddenly act like miss perfect. she's beginning to change and acting careless about it, sure i'd talk to her about it..but then again a real friend would notive neh? besides even if i did tell her all she'd do is be like "oh" and still go on because it's one of her lovey dovey stages.
now i've recently found out that one of my other best friends has been becoming more distant with me. she has gone off thinking that i'm trying to take her friends away when i'm not. really, i'm pretty independant and stable and if you have a problem with me, you know that you can tell me it i wont deny it in any way but i will retreat because i really dont know whats going on behind my back unless someone tells me about it. if our friends leave you, just talk to them. getting clingy of them will only get them annoyed, i'm not saying complain to lifes end, but do talk. real friends understand and will be there for you.
anyways i feel pretty wierd and i feel like shit. but i bet everyone does because of finals. ugh i still cant believe i cant sleep.